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What I Want in Life





"Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan Woh jo behthe the Abshaar kahan"
~ Gulzar, Ishqiya

I want me to be happy. I want to look around at the world and smile. I want to hug my mom and dad and sleep in between them. I want to reach out in the middle of the night to the person I love. And who loves me back. I want to wake up every morning and go do a job I love. A job that doesn't make me blue on Mondays. A job that makes me happy. A job that may not earn me millions of $s or make me famous or the CEO of a firm, but which makes people smile. A job for which i want to be remembered and which I will want to remember. I want to get married and for the marriage to work. I want enough time to spend with the people I love. I want No work to carry back home. I want to not be bogged down by what's happening at work. I want my friends to be close by. I want to bring up my kids exactly the way my parents brought me up. I want the man I love to be loyal to me. Always. Every tiny millisecond. I want to sing songs loudly in my own house. I want to have a nice cozy house with things I love and that I have selected on my own. Not a big Bunglow which a designer decorates. I want to look beautiful the day the man who loves me asks me to marry him and says that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. And I want the Kuch kuch hota hai gazebo scene tune to be playing in the background. I want to have tears in my eyes that day and kiss him and tell him that I love him back. I want someone to hold me say everything will be alright when I wake up from a bad dream at night. I want to take care of my parents and tell them that I am what i am because of them. I want to collect small bills, movie tickets, bus tickets, boarding passes and stick them in my book. I want to read that book when I am old and laugh and cry with all the memories they bring back. I want the people with whom I made those memories to be laughing with me.I want to have time for reunions and get-togethers and not say "I am busy". I do not want to wear designer brands. I am happy with my kurta- churidaar and Silver earrings. I want to look beautiful not in a Louis Vuitton, but in a Lajpat Nagar fake Fab-India kurta. I want to be peaceful and not wonder how much revenue I made in this quarter and how I can do more and make more in the next. I want to study Economics and teach it one day. I want to be able to inspire people to learn and love the subject like my teacher did. I don't want a lot of money or a big car to travel in. Enough to able to do all of the above things. But not millions. I don't want to go holidaying in exotic beaches and islands. I want to spend my vacations with my parents. I want to in some tiny way do something for my country. I want to live in India till I die. I want to see each and every part of my country and love it even more. I want to be able to cook like my mom. I want to wake up in the morning and brew coffee and smile to myself about life. I want to wake up suddenly one morning to find that my husband has filled the living room with Carnations ~ what my Dad did for my Mom. I want to love Shah exactly how I love him now forever. I want to be able to watch a Shah movie and still feel the same when I am 90 years old. I want the man I love to sit next to me and watch the movie and love it as much. I want to be able to love life. I want a wedding that is beautiful. I want to have a lot of fun in my own wedding. I want a husband who can sing for me, even if he sings badly. I want to have the time to write/sketch/sing/cook on weekends and not worry about the 'big presentation' I have on Monday. I want to host dinners with friends, go for coffee catch-ups and enjoy life.I don't want to earn millions of dollars.I don't want to become big. I don't want to reach the top most position in a corporate house. Because none of that will in any way help me get the things that I really want in life. That I dream off. I am happy with my house, my job, my children, a husband who loves me and will love me till the end. And I want to love my life. I am just a girl with small dreams. Small dreams, I've learnt, don't come true easily. But small dreams are exactly what I want in Life.

Comments

  1. EnvieFebruary 7, 2010 at 2:58 AM

    Absolutely the dreamy Nine I know. I hope you get everything you want in life :) Hugs!
    ~Aku

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  2. SMFebruary 10, 2010 at 7:58 PM

    You don't know HOW badly I want this to happen to you. ALL of it. And it will - that's the hope we Shah fans always have, don't we? :)

    Itni shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai.. ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki saazish ki hai..

    Kehte hain.. Agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaaho to puri kayanat usey tumse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai..

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  3. AnonymousJune 13, 2010 at 2:13 AM

    You're beautiful, nine!

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