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Saturday Nights



Glasses clanked and wine flowed,
lights dimmed and the music slowed.
As the night drew on,
my disinterest shone,
I was among a crowd.
& yet I was alone.

Holiday plans are discussed
Airline miles get told,
I belong here,
& yet I don't?

Who are these people
& what do they say,
I want to leave,
& yet I have to stay.

Is it me,
Or is it them?
I can't seem to keep up
& yet I pretend.

I know nothing
of the gossip they share,
I want to seem interested
Yet, I frankly don't care.

In such moments,
you'd be the first to know,
how much I'm struggling
how badly I want to go.

As I spin a parallel world,
I'm asked
'Are you ok?'
'Yes, of course' is my answer,

And yet, I'm not.

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