Zendagi Migzara

She really needs to get groceries, if only she had thought about this earlier, she wouldn't have had to step outside again. Stepping outside home, on a weekend felt extremely blasphemous -you've been waiting all week to finally sit down on that couch and do absolutely nothing and have no set deadline to sleep or wake up and to just basically laze. Weekends were meant for that - to treat her house with a little bit of love and care and some attention and company. She had brought herself from flowers from the nearby market. "It's been too long, we haven't seen you here off-late", Alicia her go-to florist at the local market proclaimed. "Yea I have been away, but I'm finally back and glad to be doing this again.  You'll see more of me!", she says and pays for a gorgeous pink hydrangea and 3 stalks of lillies and some ferns to go along. "Oh I need something for the bathroom, what do you suggest - something that will stay for a bit longer...

Yesterday was a full moon night and full moon nights are both a source of joy and fear. In traditional communities that believe in the power and spirituality of nature and natural elements, the moon is a feared and respected element. I'd been feeling a bit off after many weeks of travel and weirdly emotional. Now, a couple of months back I wouldn't have given this too much thought, because I was constantly under a cloud of emotions thanks to the upheaval in my personal and professional life. But the last four months have been a dream come true - because I could finally wish and work that cloud away. Which is why this sudden gloom was weird. So yesterday, I decided to do something after a long long time - a self directed Yin yoga session for myself. I'd had an argument with a friend and i was feeling all kinds of feelings from anger to sadness to the stubbornness of a child to hurt and pain of a woman - everything.  At some point i even sobbed in my Pigeon pose. But...